spontaneous thinking

I step up,

I step down.

The beat in my ears compels me,

every step is an ensemble.

Sometimes I pause.

I try to stay in limbo,

on a different plane

where the only thing that exists is atmosphere,

for as long as I can.

I sense kindness

coming from the rail,

I pick up notes rising through my body,

they say the journey’s worth it.

My skull vibrates in a way

I cannot say,

I suppose it’s joy.

Like the smiling face of an animal

or the happy routine of nature,

the constant,

the stable presence of mother.

I have many faces

for all the different places I appear,

it can be hard to know if I’m truly there.

I convince myself I’m being real

but it’s not always true.

I think about what to do,

I listen to music.

There’s education, there’s advice,

there’s pleasure, there’s motivation.

When I hear it,

I want you to know what I’m thinking,

I want you to know what I’m feeling.

The euphoria I get from every piece of life

does not equal the times

when I see your eyes aligning

with mine.

Even if I can’t meet them for long.

When I thought

what I thought

about you,

I wasn’t wrong.

Mood Music: Episode 5

I recently discovered a band that have been around for a while but were completely new to me. I’m so glad I did because I think they’re fantastic. If you haven’t heard of Wild Beasts, I suggest you check them out. I went through their whole discography in a weekend and cherry-picked 20-odd amazing songs to download.

The wonderful thing about this band is that the more you listen the better they get, there’s a great dynamic between their two vocalists and the music can be quirky, dark, and moving but always interesting.

The song that hits me the most is one called ‘Daughters’. I love how this track is so deep and dark and the way it builds is euphoric. Listen below.

Mettle

He often wondered

what destruction was really like.

A car crash,

a bomb blast,

a predators fight.

 

Sometimes he wanted to be inside

chaos

just to see if he would survive.

And if he didn’t,

at least in his final moments

he would see he was alive.

 

One day I will cross the street without looking

and if I die

then I will know it was time.

Mood Music – Episode 4

This time I want to talk about a band I had the pleasure of interviewing recently, Big Scary. I was lucky enough to catch up with frontman Tom and it was fantastic to hear his insight about their music.

I have always had a strong emotional connection to their songs, so much heart and soul is within in them and if you want to embrace your emotions, I suggest you give them a listen. Whether you are feeling up or down, in love or out of it, if you long for something or take pleasure in already having it, Big Scary have a song for you.

Tom and Jo combine everything in their music that I like. They’re creative, ambitious, tender, and energetic. Each album has been an evolution without betraying their roots.

This song is one of their more early offerings but one of their most beautiful. It’s dreamy and melancholic but it makes you feel good at the same time. As the title suggests, it is a song that makes you think about a particular person in your life. Someone you may be missing, or desiring.

Mood Music – Episode 3

This one comes from my favourite band ever, The Red Paintings. They’re an experimental rock band that put on amazing stage shows that combine music with art and performance. The amount of effort they put into their music and performances and to overcome enormous adversity to keep the band alive is breath-taking. Frontman Trash McSweeney is truly an amazing human being.

The diversity in their music never fails to provide some kind of inspiration, even if you don’t know what direction it will take you.

I don’t always understand their music but it speaks to me just the same. This particular song, ‘We Belong In The Sea’ is not necessarily typical of their sound but it’s one of my favourites anyway. Some of the lyrics really hit home, and it’s quite a haunting listen.

Mood Music – Episode One

So I get a lot of inspiration for my writing from listening to music. My writing is usually instigated by a particular mood or emotion that is influenced by what I’m hearing. I listen to the music and words just start to form, on the back of the music itself or a particular lyric that grabs me.

With that in mind, I’ll be posting some of my go-to music for getting me going. The artists I share will all be big catalysts that have inspired my writing at one time or another.

First up, we have Scottish band Mogwai. I could list so many of their songs that work for me. Mostly an instrumental post-rock group, they are masters at injecting emotion into their music. They craft songs so, so beautifully and I can listen to them all day without getting bored.

This particular song, ‘Auto Rock’, is just one of many I love by them. It was also immortalised in a scene from the film Miami Vice. I adore the way it builds and builds and it speaks of both melancholy and sincerity.

If you don’t already know Mogwai I urge you to check them out.